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Stewart Eastham
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The Man I Once Was
I was born to an Irish man with a temper like the raging sand That blew across the seas of deep despair My mother was fourteen years old on the day that I was born Saddled with a burden she couldn't bear
In a northern California town, my father beat me up and down Till they sent me away to live with my aunt I roamed the hills of Idaho with a shotgun and a stiletto Two years later, they forced me to come back
High school years in San Jose, relentless beatings everyday Till one day I came up with a plan I doctored up my paperwork and said, “Oh, please sign me up, sir” At seventeen I went to Vietnam
But I don't need your sympathy, I am everything that you are not I don't need your sympathy and I damn sure don't need a thing you got
I came back from overseas and found a girl straight as can be Married, two children followed soon I earned my pay on the police force, my wife never understood, of course How every day was like an open wound
I found myself going more and more down to the corner liquor store Seeking out the innocence I'd lost Her pastor tried to counsel us, but I never bought into that stuff Wasn't sure I could stand to pay the cost
Felt myself stuck in a cage, one night I lost it in a rage My kids they screamed, I don't know what happened then Woke up in a pool of blood, a note said they were gone for good Never ever saw my kids again
But I don't need your sympathy, I am everything that you are not I don't need your sympathy and I damn sure don't need a thing you got
First I lost my family and then they took my job from me Moved up north to the town of Oroville As a postman I made my rounds, I worked the roughest part of town もっと沢山の歌詞は ※ Mojim.com At Playtown USA I'd get my pills
Robbed one day of all my mail by a Mexican out for a thrill He cracked me with a Louisville slugger bat I never ever told no one, I was so ashamed at what was done My head was never quite right after that
One night outside the Eagles Club, I spotted that ol' Mexican Smashed his head in with everything I had Felt my whole past exhumed, I never wanted to sing that tune But here I stand with blood on my hands
But I don't need your sympathy, I am everything that you are not I don't need your sympathy and I damn sure don't need a thing you got
With help from an old police friend, manslaughter's what I got in the end Spent some years in the Susanville state pen After I finally got released, I found myself a sense of peace With a woman who didn't care where I'd been
We got a place up by the lake and cashed the checks she got from the state We'd watch TV and drink and drink and drink Till one day she wasn't there, she passed away right in her chair I closed her eyes and tried not to think.
But I wondered where my children were, with families of their own, I'm sure Probably never thought twice of their old man Now I'm up to sixty-five and the doctor says I'm soon to die How I wish I could show them who I am
Please understand, I'm not the man I once was Please understand, I'm not the man I once was
I'm not ready to go I see the devil's come to take away his own
Now I know, it's my time to go
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